I keep wondering when I will come back to me. I miss myself. I use to be the stable one, the dependable one, the intelligent one, the responsible one. Now I do so many things unlike me and I don’t even know why. I can’t tell if I just don’t care or what. The world just seems to be spinning so fast and I can’t seem to grab hold of anything. I wonder how people deal with this sort of thing. I can barely keep myself present in a conversation or even in my own thoughts. Remembering to check the mail more than once every three weeks is a challenge. I just haven’t quite figured out how to be a person again. I hang out with friends and pretend to enjoy myself and be excited about things they are excited about. This is in effort to feel like a real person again but it gets exhausting. Trying to put on an act in front of everyone all the time takes a lot out of me, which is why I tend to spend so much time alone. I don’t know what to do about this problem.